Four weeks the doctor has been in attendance. I told him not to hesitate to tell us what he may call " the worst," if it is that in his view-point, as I am a man with a fixed destiny, through the atonement which removed all fear of departure. I have a good Shepherd and Lord.
The lower limbs are at times ice-cold, as also the upper parts of the body, notwithstanding all the covering that may be put on. My legs are apt to suddenly go from under me. I went down with a fall at the beginning.
Well, enough of this; but I can say that I am absolutely thankful for my sickness, although I am over it but in part. The Lord has certainly made all my bed in my sickness, turning portions of His word into downy pillows.
But I stop, for how can we find words to express what He has for us when we enter into His banqueting house, and His banner over us is love ! I am comfortably situated, and am followed up with love. Well, how can I thank God sufficiently for it all? There are so many I would enjoy a last talk with-if it be that the end is in view. O brother,
" How shall we meet those eyes !
Mine on Himself I cast,
And own myself the Saviour's prize-
Mercy from first to last."
A. McC